the other day I was sitting in the balcony with my amazing cousin, and we both were reflecting over where we are in life, and it came to me very sudden that right now im so happy. happier then ever actually. not just with things that are happening this year like going to israel, and going to stockholm, and seeing beyonce and bla bla. but happy with right now. happy with having two fantasic jobs where I feel I develop myself and my empathy for people. happy with the ordinary day where chilling at home is fun. happy with where I live and that I get to spend time with some of the most inspiring humans. happy with the friends im surrounded with (although we dont live in the same city and it takes some planning to see them! but im more than happy too!) and very happy with my family and to see how much they've grown in only a few years. im super proud actually. if this is life. then im sorted. 

 

never regret your past. never fear the future. beacuse both of them are unchangeble. we are here and now. 

so just love whatever comes at you. <3

so I guess... the outro is coming. the india outro. the asia outro. the journeys outro. or probably the journeys intro actually. because that is what I feel. that this is the beginning of something so wonderful. there was never an end to it. only a beginning. a beginning to everything. a beginning to something absolutely amazing one cant miss out on. and I'm gonna be there. for sure. forever.

 

this is gonna be the last update concerning my travels. but I feel like I need something concrete to end it. a final thought. a thought more about the journey I made inside rather than outside. which is even harder to explain. but today, on my birthday I felt it again. that feeling I felt for the first time walking down the streets of Delhi with all the chaos everywhere outside my body, rather than inside my soul. and that feeling that kept coming back to me several times during the 4 months I was away. its gonna sound like the weirdest thing ever and take it as you will, but imagine walking down a street where all you see is dirt, proverty, dying animals and begging children in the most hectic and busy city life you'll ever imagine. people screaming and honking and cows walking across the street whilst almost being killed by 10 cars and tuk-tuks every 5 seconds. and all you feel is love. everything that is moving around you is living, breathing and only wishing to survive. the only thing that connect us all right here, right now, is our beating heart. and breathing lungs. and the love I felt, and feel, for the people around me, on that street, and in that cafe today is all you need. it is all you need to survive. then nothing, what so ever, will be more important. 

 

and I will never do anything that doesn't benefit my mental health ever again.

and I will do everything that comes to my mind and that I feel strongly about. 

and no one will ever tell me whats right or wrong and how or why. 

 

here's for earth. here's for people. here's for plants and animals and every living being. we are one. so love eachother and all our faults. and thank you for all the love today, you are all amazing <3