sorry for all the swedishness. im gonna try to keep this blog updated whilst im away, when I get WiFi, so bare with me. here we go! 

 

 

okey, so, this is you. go!... no, sorry.... 

 

 

 

the last few days I've been dealing with a funny question. Who are you? or even, What are you? the first answer that pops into mind would be;

 

I am a 23 year old white man who quite often beat myself down. for whatever reason. and therefore cry farily more often than what a white man shoud be. you know we white men have a cryjar, right? not more than 10 tears a year. anyways....im telling myself, you're too roundfaced, you have big legs, you only care about yourself, you etc etc. 

 

the second answer would consist of my sexuality, (because this still seams to be a big thing in sweden 2015) and sound something like this;

 

I am a 23 year old white man who happens to not care about whether I fall in love with someone of the opposite or the same sex. I tend to go with the energy. the aura. you know. WELL YOU'RE SUPPOSE TO FALL IN LOVE WITH THE PEORSONALITY!!!...... WHAT DO YOU MEAN? SO YOU'RE LIKE GAY AND STRAIGHT? 

 

1. Why am I suppose to fall in love with the personality? Because you say so? ok. great. I'll do that then. (Go with the norm. easy)

 

2. HOW am I suppose to fall in love with the personality? Explian to me how its possible to fall in love within 10 minutes if you fall in love with the personality. becasue it defintiely takes me longer than 10 minutes to get to know a person and I can still feel this tickeling feeling after only 10 minutes. so. no, I go with the energy. 

 

1. yeees, im like the super human that can love everything in my surrondings compaired to your narrow minded soul.

 

2. I don't call myself either gay or straight. I call myself Victor. have a think about that. 

 

but then the third answer creep up my bones and says;

 

what is a white man? what is sexuality? even, what is personality?..... who decided that....

is this how you define yourself? by what the World wants you to say? so people can put you in a box that says. WHITE! or MAN! or FAT! or CARELESS! or GAY! 

 

you cant define yourself by your sexuality. you cant define yourself of which colored skin you have. you cant define youself with norms, expectations or labes which people are so good to throw on eachother. just to make it simpler in their minds. 

 

the only thing you can truly define yourself with is am. not you, not I, nor we or she. 

 

again, am. 

 

so, what defines am? actions. okey, example. 

 

"Hey lets go to Primark and buy some new cheap shirts so we can go out clubbing tonight!"

 

1. Why? (This is a fucking big why) the society. I highly doubt that you need another shirt for tonights feast. just take a look in your wardrobe and choose one of your 100 other items you can wear. so WHY are people then going to Primark for new clothes....? Whats. the. deal? SOCIETY. media. power. money. are we actually making our own choices or is someone else making the choices for us? JUST LIKE HOW TO DEFINE YOURSELF..... are you making your choice or is someone else making the choice for you? 

 

funny question right. 

 

I am gay or I am Victor. you have the power. 

 

2. I'm NOT promoting Primark what so ever. Its just a great example of how people get fooled to think that cheap is good and stuff is good and the more cheap stuff you have the happier you are! of course! and then Pirmark happens to be the worst store ever to buy your clothes from if you ever think about human rights just a tiny tiny bit. 

 

come on. break the lables. break the higher power. break the walls. dont be fooled. 

 

so actions. i would say so yes. my actions defines am. i choose to eat vegetarian. i choose to cut out on my dairy products. i choose to not buy clothes at primark. i choose secondhand. i choose to not label myself as gay or straight. i choose to say i am. 

 

 

lets go again,